Karmic Mirroring

The Last Quarter Moon is where we discover how we are working with the energy of the Full Moon in real time, where we run into the same patterns and habits, a familiar friction that amplifies pre-existing pain points. Quarter Moons say — something has to give. It’s time to try a different approach.

This LQM arrives on January 10, at 20° Libra, and is square the Sun at 20° Capricorn. There is so much planetary action happening in Capricorn right now, a cosmic seeding that feels like ancient fertility magic. Ancient because the energy of Capricorn is elder energy, and I like to think of this sign as carrying the wisdom of the Grandmothers.

Each planetary conjunction is initiating a new cycle in cardinal earth, planting cosmic seeds that are located deep within the soil of my body, the soil that was laid down by the genetics and life circumstances of my ancestors, especially my matrilineal line. There is something about growing in the womb of the body that birthed me that renders the mother line the main power line in my own body. Things found in this ancestral soil include karmic patterns I inherited.

As each cosmic seed cracks open within me, tiny roots begin their journey downward, each rootling boring deeper into the very marrow of my bones and the bones of my ancestors, while at the other end of the seed a tendril begins to work its way towards the topsoil, towards the external. As within so without, but the laws of nature and the seed show me that first it is inward, downward, through, and then out.

Each seed is an initiation that roots itself into the soul soil of my being, while at the same time I am being called to witness a shedding so epic that it feels paradoxical, but somehow just right. Which is to say, at moments I find myself deeply despairing, looking up from the bottom of the well.

Stuck in the mud again.

I remind myself that the year of the wood snake is still with us through mid-February, and that we are coming up to the final lunar cycle in this way of marking time. Right now it feels as though there is something that needs to be released and composted, a way of being so familiar it feels like in letting it go, I’m losing a part of myself. Some of these burdens are no longer mine to carry, even if I agreed to do so in the past.

The Last Quarter Moon in Libra is ruled by Venus in Capricorn, Venus having just been renewed within the solar fire, Venus having just reunited with Mars, fertilizing her desire. Venus, still hidden in the rays of the Sun, invisible to us bet deeply felt — SHE is orchestrating the LQM in Libra — a cardinal air sign that is oriented towards the mirror of the other, learning through 1:1 relationships.

Venus & the LQM are pointing to the skipped step, or perhaps the tree root that I keep tripping over, landing in the place I always find myself. The ground that is so familiar, the relational habits that have kept me safe, even as I have abandoned myself again and again at the altar of keeping the peace.

It’s not that I want a war, what I want is to stop being at war with myself. I want to find a way to harmonize the disparate parts of me so that I can show up whole in relationship. Doing so will amend this ancestral soil of bloodline and bone knowing, allowing me to move into the year of the fire horse just a little bit lighter and a helluva lot stronger.

Which leads me to boundaries…